Long hours in soft conversation punctuated by belly laughs and shared phrases. Straight up intimate questions that get gut honest answers with no bullshit in the way. Exploring diverging experience and philosophies to determine mutual boundaries. Learning the differences in perspective by seeking to bridge a cultural divide without becoming defensive, just because of difference. Celebrating diversity in a whole new way.
Allowing those ideas and opinions long held in silence to be aired with someone you are just getting to know, when you would not previously explore them even with your best friends. Relishing the newness, the creation of a friendship without ulterior motives because you both have the same approximate game plan where neither party is looking for some pie in the sky silver lined dream world, but a rooted earthy understanding between adults who like each other but are not even close to giving up their independence.
The little joy that jolts you when he calls, just because he calls and his voice makes you smile because all he really wants at that moment is to talk to you. Recognizing that the connection seems like its been there forever, there is a comfortableness in play that came out of nowhere - old friends newly met and having him bring that very subject up in our last conversation.
Telling me that he considers me his very good friend on a level above and beyond the physical sense, that I am a beautiful intelligent woman who deeply interests him and allowing myself to believe him. It's hard for broken people to take that leap - to open up and trust that you won't get burned again. Stepping out of a purposefully insulated years worn cocoon where intimate involvement is concerned is a damn scary thing. For him and I. Finding the other person willing to discuss and explore that fear at length, in terms of the friendship you are currently building - that's a priceless gift.
To find that respectful inclusion coupled with a similarity in passion - don't think I've ever been here before.
But man, our worlds are different.
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